Here is a little piece of Mixed media on canvas, one of these paintings, where I used a lot of collage elements. And this face also appeared. I just had to follow, what showed up. I called it „recent cosmetic surgery“.
The pages belong together and they are about fear. My fear. I sometimes had unspecified fear attacks and I did not know where they came from. Mostly I felt them in my stomach, as a real pain. This became so bad, that I had to have an operation last year, where the gall-bladder was taken out: 13 big stones. So I trained myself by asking where the fear came from and why. And I could ask myself if that is bad enough to be afraid of, or maybe there is a solution. Like, when I am afraid of a new cancer, when there is some pain, I forced myself to go to the doctor and find out what it is. So I would not fear this anymore.
I took courses in all kinds of relaxing techniques to cool down. In other words I took care of my fears and as soon as I found out, what each bad feeling meant and where it came from, I could get rid of it.
That is why I marked the 3 areas in the figure, that is where my fear possibly is. You might have another feeling – find it out.
At the end this time of paralyzation was over and I could get into my sneakers and start into my own future.
Gabrieles Art-a-tag 